Hanging out on the Fence...

Ever hear of the sayings:

"Have my cake & eat it too"

"Having it BOTH ways"

"Best of BOTH worlds"

"Going in TWO different directions"

And my favorite, "Dangling on BOTH sides of the fence."

Yup that would describe my world right now.

On the one side, there is the total excitement of starting a new life, in a new place, making new friends. I am so excited about getting back to So. Africa to renew the friendships already started and love on the children and locals every day. And while stories of cobras and large insects aren’t too thrilling, thoughts of an 80 degree Christmas is pretty darned inviting, let me tell you *wink*.

On the other side, there is sadness when I think of those I will not see every day here at the office. Not spending time with family and don’t get me started about missing our grandchildren. Then there is not being around to share fellowship or teach class on Sunday mornings. I wonder how long it will take to NOT answer our phone "good morning Cornerstone" *grins*

But the reality is... for now, I lay on the fence. Trying to grip tightly, trying to balance the two "sides" listed above all the while figuring what to bring and what to sell, trying to decide on whether to bring the dogs with or find a loving home here in the US AND praying for partners so that all of this can take place. Let's just say I don't feel as relaxed as the little guy in the picture above looks as my feet dangle on both sides. LOL I thought I was a wreck the month or so before my wedding…sheesh!

And so I take a deep breath, and call on my Heavenly Father. My favorite verses constantly remind me that :

HE is with me…

Psalm 139:10…..even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

HE has the perfect plan for me…

Jer 29:11….for I know the plans I have for you

His plan is perfect, He will not leave me alone, and while I lay on the fence, feet dangling on either side, every so often I will close my eyes & in Him find rest.

xoxo, Jeanine